Impatiently Patient

So, 36 weeks today, 28 days until my due date, and I am impatiently being patient. This week is full of doctor's appointments including my first that was this morning to get me set up to switch from my current injections of Lovenox over to Heparin which has a shorter half life in my system which is much better for delivery. I was supposed to have my 36 week checkup, but that was changed about a week ago, so I go back to the hospital on Wednesday for my 36 week Group B Strep test and possible internal check. And lastly I have my 36 week ultrasound on Friday to check on Cole's growth as well as fluid level.

It's been really hard not monitoring all the fluids that are leaving my body down in the nether regions as there was so little fluid left when they broke my water with Elizabeth due to a leak. I notice some every once in a while, it dries up, and then a little more. I also don't want to go into an induction unless it's medically necessary, so I'm just going to let the ultrasound on Friday give me the information needed right now and anything after that we will figure out as it comes!

At this point in time I am impatiently trying my hardest to be patient for Cole's arrival. I feel like I am forgetting so many things as my brain is so very scattered, so in that sense, I just don't feel ready for him, yet at the same time I am ready for this pregnancy to be over, to sleep without constant hip pain, and to have clarity and knowledge about both his foot and any other issues that may arise when he is born.

I think this is when FB can get dangerous! There are others who are due 1-2 weeks before me who have posted that they could go any day, or even others due 3-4 weeks who have already delivered. It kinda makes this whole waiting 'game' that much harder. I know that he will come when he and my body are both ready, but I am anxious to see if anything is progressing. I do feel him moving down low much more often than I was, so that is a good sign.

The hardest part of all of this has to be sitting through work. Due to the fact that I had a job change about a month ago, I have not been given much work to do, so I show up at work every day with a few items on the agenda, and then I just sit around and wait for my phone to ring. SO PAINFUL! It's not that much better than sitting at home, organizing a closet, and then flipping through the channels to find something to watch. At least at work I am getting paid and I'm much closer to the hospital, but at the same time it sure makes time go by so much slower.

I will update with any exciting news here as I don't feel like everyone on FB wants to know how much I'm dilated or effaced after every doctor's appointment (or how much weight I've gained for that matter ... which another friend of mine has so wonderfully posted after every appointment and it makes me feel like a cow compared to her '8 total lbs' - sorry, venting). I just have to remember that this all ends, at some point in time, it will all be over, I just have to wait for that time whenever it may be!