So helpless

About a week ago Elizabeth was starting to get another cold, and she wasn't handling this one quite as well as she has handled most of her others in the past. Tuesday night I noticed her starting to wheeze a little bit, and it was worse the next morning (and I heard her while sleeping). Mark stayed home with her on Wed and we decided to take her to the doctor on Thursday. I came into work early to get work done, then did the baby transfer and we went to the doctor.

Needless to say it was a good thing we went in when we did. A double ear infection and the early stages of pneumonia in one of her lungs ... I felt HORRIBLE. Friday and Saturday were very long days, and to top it all off, she cut her first 2 teeth on Friday as well.

I have never felt so helpless as I did Sunday morning. Ellie had been so clingy, needing mommy or daddy, wanting to be held, didn't want to eat, no bottle, hadn't pooped in over 2 days .. I just didn't know what to do. I called my mom crying, I threw pillows in frustration while making the bed, and eventually got her to sleep and sat quietly in our bedroom with the TV on for noise while sewing and working on my homemade stick horses for her bday party.

She is on the mend, but having a sick baby and not knowing what to do, what hurts, or how to help is such a draining and helpless feeling. Here's to hoping it doesn't happen again for a LONG time!